Holidays!!! Freedom approaches!

Time to hibernate, grow warm and fat and to withdraw into a nice, warm primordial cell.
Nice, warm primordial ooze.

To swim in an all-engulfing sea of warmth, sleep, peace...to feel the soothing seretonigenic breath across my face...

And now assessment.....

Try

night passes.
the challenge of sleep is over.
lingering fragments of nocturnal mictuations are as
dead insects hanging in a water-glass,
stale by the bed.



morning blares its alarm-clock assalt and
with wet hair, icy fog and a clock that never waits,
blue-eared I arrive late again...



and now I try to begin again...100% is not nearly enough...

Hhhhmmm...


Deadline deadline deadline...



Dead Line...


I know I'll have a lot more fun with this when the pressure's off...


Adrenaline is a friend who trashes the house if entertained for too long...


Diabolical metronome ticks are as aggressive demand.


Possibilities of success loom on the horizon as a faint breath of dawn...

that same light which has too many times spelled
time run out...


And my eyes are tired monitors as cracked marbles...

Day ends.

Fear

Captured. Heart locked away. Possessed. Consumed. Darkness hovers on the horizon and I know that to be past it, I must first pass through it.
The once mellifluous effulgence is now an embittered grey rubble...
Ecstacy to sadness to terror. It is no longer the loss I fear...